Grins

grinsly @ 2007-02-11T22:31:00

2007-02-12T02:49:49Z

Uh hi guys...
So it’s been something like three months since I last updated and I guess it’s about time that I get on that.
So yeah what's been going on with me...
Well I signed my lease for next year. I'm living with two of my close friends in an apartment that's practically on dal campus which is good because that means I wont have to hike back and forth from school but bad because well...its just so freaking close. It's a really nice place though lots of bright colours and it's in good condition. Also there's lots of room so people can crash there. Especially people from out of town. Cough.
Schools fine as always. It's kind of freaking me out though because after reading week there's something like six weeks of school left. Which is nothing. I just can't believe I'll be through my first year of university. I still can't really believe I'm in university and I never really thought FYP would end. It's just such a part of my life now its kind of scary to think it's all going to be over. It's kind of exciting too though because there are so many things I want to do next year. I really don’t have that clear of an idea of what I want to major in because there's just so much to choose from. I don’t know I figure I'll take a mix of classes next year and see what I like.
I'm excited to be home for a bit though. Just to be out of the res environment will be nice. I just miss the vibe of a real house. Also I'm very excited for my trip to Montreal with Brookie. I think it'll be a blast. Anyway I have a paper to work on.
Love you all and hope you guys are well
Charlotte

grinsly @ 2006-11-23T21:14:00

2006-11-24T03:14:45Z

Rules: Post 12 things about yourself that are strange or weird habits in your journal and tag friends. If you've been tagged, complete it and tag your friends.

1) I laugh at hugely inappropriate times during movies.
2) I like things in my room to be neat but I hate cleaning. I only ever tidy.
3) I like reading comic books but I get really self-conscious when people see me reading them.
4) I cover my eyes or ears when people do embarrassing things on TV or in Movies. It makes me cringe.
5) When I’m board I fidget with my piercings.
6) I love watching movie trailers. I get disappointed when they end and the movie actually starts.
7) I have serious issues when people don’t share.
8) I am a horrific speller and I always forget to use commas.
9) I hardly ever listen to an album all the way though.
10) I am terrible at small talk, which makes me incredibly awkward around anyone who doesn’t know me.
11) I only ever read the arts sections and event listings in newspapers.
12) I daydream all the time.

I know its a long way off but...

2006-10-14T20:33:35Z

My reading week is February 17th - 25th and I'm thinking about going to Montreal, Ottawa and Oakville.
Are any of you going to be around if I visit?

grinsly @ 2006-10-14T02:03:00

2006-10-14T05:06:53Z

Just watched Battle Royal stoned. Don't do that.
Japanese teenagers killing each other is just more comprehendible sober
Wow.

Smiley smile smile smile!

2006-10-02T02:54:17Z

Do you know what I love about Halifax? I love that asofterworld is published in the local paper. I love that the average house isn't the colour beige it's purple, or gold, or deep green. I love how there are so many university students here with so many stories. I love that cars always stop for pedestrians even if it's a no-walk sign. I love how every single Saturday there's a farmer's market and thats where people go to buy groceries. I love that people walk, bike or skate everywhere instead of everyone driving a car.

Sorry for the random bout of Halifax love but I've just finished my second paper and I'm actually happy with it! Also my birthday was Friday and my parents came to town and I got to go shopping and actually spend money! I'm in a freaking good mood!

Oh man...

2006-09-27T15:10:17Z

So I just got my first paper back and...well lets just say it did not go well. I knew that I would get a bad mark because a) you always get a bad mark on the first paper and b) I have never really had a lot of confidence in my essay writing skills but this was a really bad mark.
I'm feeling pretty stressed right now because the mark was so bad but mostly because I am terrified that I won't improve. My prof wrote that my bad writing was getting in the way of "my thought" which scares me because that is a big fucking problem. I'm meeting with her tomorrow so hopefully that'll help give me some direction. But yeah I'm still feeling very screwed.

Someone please tell me something uplifting!

[Edit] So I'm much calmer now that I've talked to someone who did my program and had the same mark as I did on her first paper. She got a great overall mark and has made me feel much better.

Yay for people with past experience!

Oh man...

2006-09-16T04:28:33Z

Went to Metric Concert
Found the indie loving people at Kings
Had the best pizza of my life
It was good
night

grinsly @ 2006-09-10T15:58:00

2006-09-10T19:21:38Z

So I had a busy afternoon. I went to a Organic Food Festival thing with a couple of girls from my res. It was really nice since all the vendors had inexpensive food that was all hearty and healthy. Also there was lots of hippie-esque music which was cute. But on the way there I ran into Billy Train, Jeff Budd and Peter Green. I had a thirty second conversation with them in which I established that no they did not live in the Dal res next to my campus. So that was nice and weird especially since I had no clue that Peter Green was going to Dal.

On the way back from the organic fest I got dragged to a Torah blessing which was unusual. One of the girls I went with and I left before the actual blessing because we felt intrusive but I was given a little card with a blessing on it and a little bit of fabric from the mantel of the Torah. So that was nice.

Now I have to go and read Homer.

p.s. Last night was the last night of Frosh and they had a couple of bands play one of which was The Sleepless Nights. I hadn't heard of them before but they were really good. Go download em!

But I am le tired!

2006-09-07T11:58:24Z

I have been reading In Passing... a lot over the last two days. I don't know why but I find it very comforting. I think it might have something to do with not having the usual banter around since almost everyone I banter with is in a different province.

Anyway I start my Dal class this afternoon which is psych and I'm pretty excited. It's always been something I was interested in and for a while I had myself convinced I was going to be a psychiatrist but like all my other ambitions for the future that went away. Also my second lecture is today which'll be interesting since the text under discussion I read two months ago and have a very vague memory of. I just hope it all comes flooding back or that I have someone smarter and helpful beside me.

I did however expose a friend of mine from frosh to The Lonely Island, Lazy Sunday and The Best of Will Ferrel yesterday which made me feel happy for bettering her life. And at the talent night thing we had someone quoted Just Two Guys which was amazing.

Anyway all of you should watch two movies when you have a minute: City of God and Free Zone. Both are foreign films (I think) and both are really well done. Go watch!

Uni

2006-09-05T19:07:43Z

Here are a few interesting things I found out about King's over the last four days...

1. there are about six haunted places on campus including the floor below mine and the chapel
2. the entire campus is connected by underground tunnels so that in the dead of winter I don't have to go outside
3. the handbook to my program is bigger than any book I have to read for it
4. King's has the same food supplier that Appleby did which I have mixed feelings about

Frosh is good and I'm about half way through it and everyone is very friendly especially after they have a few beers in them.

Also his morning I'm pretty sure I saw Stacy Flinn when I went to get my student ID which means she's living next door to me. So that's nice and awkward.

I hope you guys are all having fun.

I'm moody so you can ignore this

2006-08-07T02:13:43Z

I am in a shitty mood. And unfortunately instead of it being pms or lack of sleep or well anything quickly aleviated I fear the immediate cause is a multitude of much more significant and, dare I say it, emotional things.
I think the key thing to realize and recognize before I delve into the cause of the mood which had me crying in the washroom (I know how "No one understands my teenage angst!" of me) is that there are many things I just don't like to talk about and don't talk about. This coupled with so many other things has me upset. I think part of it is high school. It's over and I accept this thankfully and enthusiastically but that doesn't mean I don't have regrets. I HATE how terrified I was and how much I let certain people dictate my opinion and how goody-goody I was. If I could do it again I would change so much. The fact of the matter is that my life for so long was highschool and Appleby and all those fucking people the majority of which I didn't like and my life was dictated by these boundaries, both social and school created, and I regret that. I regret not being freer and I regret not being braver. I wish I was so much braver. And now embarking on university I'm scared I'll be scared. I scared I'll be a coward when it comes to people, and opinions and boys and just being on my own. I feel like I've seen such a small distorted fraction of the world and that the real thing is going to laugh in my face and mock me for going to private school and never having to worry about money. I want so much to be out of Oakville and out of the bubble but I'm worried I wont be accepted somewhere real. So there's that.

Then there's the fact that I'm starting to recognize things about people I used to respect and admire and love being friends with that make me so sad and angry at the same time. I will not name names because this is not the place but I will say that I am disappointed and I wish to god I could smack some common sense and a sense of priority into them. But I can't and I doubt my opinion will have any effect on them in the future.

The fact that I won't say anything to these people is another reason I'm upset and another reason I think I'm a coward. I will not be honest with people because I'm scared of the hurting and being hurt. It's ridiculous but I just can't. I hate that.

And lastly I feel horribly disconnected. I'm in a different province than all my friends. The internet is dial up and slow and the telephone isn't really an option. I have friends who are sad, who I haven't seen in ages and who I miss and I'm here. Right now at this very moment all I want is to be with the three or four people who can make me laugh and who I can talk to without fear and I can't. I miss Tricha and Melissa and Brooke and Alley and Meg and so many others and fuck I just have so much trouble talking to my family.

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I know so many so so so many people in the world have real things to worry about and I hate how god damn trivial and stupid this is. Fuck I am a self centered prick. Fuck fuck fuck. Ignore me and ignore this do something worthwhile unlike this. Fuck! I hate complaining but I have to say this I have to write this up and out. I have to speak because Im so exhausted of not.

I love Maggie Cheung's voice

2006-07-18T20:16:50Z

I just watched Forest Gump and I really wish I hadn't because I forgot how incredably sad it is and how it is to date the only movie that could ever make me full out cry. I'm not proud of that fact but its the truth. Mock me if you must.

In other news I just got my amazon order which includes another three books I have to read before September which means I now have four left. Luckily its Dante's The Divine Comedy so it should be interesting. Also I got the soudtrack to Clean. I fully intend on watching the movie sometime but felt it necessary to buy the soundtrack ahead of time. This is probably a bad idea since last time I did it I couldn't pay attention to the movie because I kept on humming along to the background music.

I need to learn restraint.

So yeah...

2006-06-26T04:24:02Z

The Fesit/Bloc Party/Broken Social Scene Olympic Island concert was incredable. We got there at something like noon and left around 11 that night. It was sunny and hot and to one side was the Toronto skyline and to the other way too many people. Fesit was adorable, Jay Mascis was impressive, Bloc Party was of course brilliant and they played Like Eating Glass and Modern Romance so I was happy and Broken Social Scene was a sight to see. I screamed when they played Ibi Dreams of Pavement and well it was bliss.

I am a happy girl.

Summer is officialy here

2006-06-20T18:55:01Z

I hate how much stuff seems to pile up when I'm off the internet for a measly day and a half. It only exacerbates my dependence.

But in the day and the half that I did not spend on my computer I had some pretty fucking good times. The Meggo and I hung out and did a very long list of things which includes watching movies, eating out, going to chapters, chilling out, shopping at value village and getting our hair cut.

I got many splendid things at the village including a three dollar pair of shoes which are for lack of a better term teh sex. Also I got my hair all cut off so now it ends halfway down my neck. I think short is the new long.

I like this new sensation of freedom. It puts me in a good mood.

Prom

2006-06-18T22:29:24Z

Well yesterday was a succession of ups and downs. It really was what you would expect from formal which is comforting in some ways and depressing in others. Lets just say it was a fitting end to my high school experience. I had fun but I was ready to go by the end of it.

I set up a photobucket account with all the photos I took. The account is applebygrads06 and the password is getlow. I got some pretty good shots even in my inebriated state.

I need sleep.

Oh Mrs. Robinson...

2006-06-16T20:49:38Z

I am a graduate!
yay for me!

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5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
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Drunken revelations = good times

2006-06-15T19:21:22Z

Well last night was curious. I hate how disoriented I get when I'm drunk.

In a phrase: FUCK YES!

2006-06-13T15:15:14Z

I am done with high school! Which means no more classes, no more exams, and no more STUPID HYPOCRITICAL ADMINISTRATION!!
I AM FUCKING DONE!!!!!

God this feels soooo good.

grinsly @ 2006-06-09T12:31:00

2006-06-09T16:46:25Z

I am exactly half way through my exams. Which means that only philosophy, writer's craft and political science stand between me and the end of high school. This puts me in a very good mood.

Boarding is getting weird because everyone is moving out which makes it a lot less fun. It's all bare walls and ugly empty desks now. It’s all very eerie. Not to mention its quiet which in and of itself is an anomaly for walker. I miss all the loud people who've seemed to have disappeared.

There are still some pretty good times in Walker though i.e. watching Blade Trinity yesterday and pretty much peeing our pants laughing. It was so choppy it gave me a headache but the ridiculously pointless plot and dialogue and the many many many creative renditions of cunt/motherfucker/bitch etc were brilliant in a horrible way. Also Parker Posey and John Michael Higgins of Best in Show glory were in it which makes me sad because they are so much better than that.

Anyway I move out after my exams tomorrow and that almost completes my experiance at Appleby.
Wow I can't believe I'm actually almost done. This is surreal.

grinsly @ 2006-06-04T18:05:00

2006-06-04T22:18:28Z

So Relay for Life was not what I expected at all. I had a lot of fun until about 1 when everything got wet and covered with banana. Also there was the odd thing with that kid in our tent who I used to go to school with four years ago. That was surreal. I'm sorry I kind of ditched but honestly guys I felt like shit and it wasn't looking up. I had a great time though what with Dodam, Melissa and many, many others being slightly inebriated. There was also the many random chats and dance parties and just relaxing. It was good times.

Yesterday I did nothing except sit on my ass and relax. It was a good day.
Today I studied for a couple of hours but my work ethic has up and disappeared so I'm going to go procrastinate until I go back to Appleby.

I am feeling a little screwed for exams.

My Weekend...

2006-05-29T03:31:06Z

...was very busy. I went to Toronto twice, got my grad dress, got drunk playing card games and enjoyed myself immensely. I did not however open my laptop once or do any form of work. I won't lie, it felt good.

New and Improved Music Obsessions: Neko Case, The Raconteurs, The New Pornographers (it took me a while but they've grown on me) and Sufjan Stevens which is actually more of a relapse into an old obsession.

Link of the week http://postsecret.blogspot.com (Thanks to Catherine who showed this to me.)

God I'm tired. Next weekend I should just sit and relax.

Go see Thank You For Smoking. Now.

2006-05-15T03:43:33Z

So it was a weekend of satire. I saw both Thank You for Smoking and American Dreamz. I laughed, I cried, I looked on in disgust at Western society. It’s sad that two of the funniest movies I've seen this year both mocked things that millions of people who know better do anyways. But we are a stupid species and I'm just going to have to suffer on with my sarcasm and my own hypocrisies and accept this.

But on a brighter note I do feel a certain sense of accomplishment this weekend because I got almost everything I wanted to done. This included 99% of my english summative, a good wad of my writers craft summative, mothers day and job applications. I feel all warm and fuzzy and proud of myself.

But god doesn't always have the best goddammend plans, does he?

2006-05-11T13:40:49Z

I love warm rainy days
I do not however love informative movies about Stalin in which a much younger Condoleezza Rice is interviewed. It's spooky.

01.
Feedback from James Joyce's submission of Ulusses to his creative-writing workshop. (Robin and Cat know how incredibly good this is.)
02. A photo of visitors enjoying a segway tour in distillery district.(I just keep thinking of Arrested Development)
03. Bank Robber
04. Gigposter.com (I just found this and it combines two of my favorite things: illustrative art and good music)
05. Destroyer at Rock Insider (download their two songs and just listen to what you've been missing)

Lucas is my Mr. Miyagi

2006-05-09T17:10:46Z

I need a hobby any recommendations?

Muzac!

2006-05-08T22:49:59Z

Type the following words into your iTunes.

happy
number of songs: 14
song most played: "Happy" – Jenny Lewis and The Watson Twins

sad
number of songs: 7
song most played: "Sad Eyes” – Josh Rouse

life
number of songs: 38
song most played: "Rest of My Life” – Rilo Kiley

death
number of songs: 40
song most played: “Energy of Death” – Apostle of Hustle

sex
number of songs: 19
song most played: “Sexy Sadie” – The Beatles

love
number of songs: 130
song most played: "This Years Love” – David Gray

friend
number of songs: 15
song most played: “Will is My Friend” – Devendra Banhart

drug
number of songs: 4
song most played: "The Drugs Don’t Work” – The Verve